Friday, January 21, 2005

I Quit

I finally did it. I turned in my resignation on Monday. Yes, I am finally leaving this company after almost three years. I’ve been wanting to do this for as long as I can remember, but was somehow always pulled back. To be fair, the people in my department are all really nice and sweet, even if sometimes I don’t always agree with the ways they do things. If I didn’t like the people I worked with, I I wouldn’t have lasted this long. BUT, all things were not peachy. Little things that you think you can deal with become a big source of frustration over time, and I finally decided that I don’t have to live my life this way. Why torture myself? If working is becoming a tumor that poisons my quality of life, why not remove it altogether? So that’s what I did.

It’s actually scary. I am only 31, going on 32. I have half of my life still ahead of me. What am I going to do with it? Any suggestions?

Ever since my boss signed my resignation form and made it official this morning, I’ve been having this sickening feeling in my stomach. Where do I go from here? How will I spend my days? Work was my safety net, however much I hated it, but now that it will be gone, I kind of miss it.

8 comments:

Rachel said...

Aw, Lynn, don't be scared. Knowing you, you'll figure out something smart and practical to do with your life. I personally think you should either take advantage of your considerable photography and/or baking skills or... maybe it's time to get a puppy (toriaizu, of course)!

By the way, congratulations on having the guts to do this. This milestone definitely deserves a celebration...perhaps with creme brulee? Just kidding ;)

Hsin said...

Yay!! This is great news!!! Congratulations for taking this big bold step!!! Don't worry about what you're going to do with the rest of your life. You have plenty of time to figure that one out. Bake away, take photos, wear kimonos, style your food - gee, there's so much to do!

Sorry, on a selfish note, this does mean that all four of us can now get together any time of the day!!!!

Lynn said...

Thanks girls for your support. And I do realize what this means in terms of scheduling our get-togethers. One more week!

I would LOVE to get a puppy, but I don't think I'm ready for that commitment yet, maybe next year.

Chao said...

Damn it! Now you just ruined the Ah Q style.

Actually, I’m not too surprised. From what I know, at least it appears to be. You’re always in control of everything you do. I was a little disappointed when I see you frustrated with your work and could not do anything about it. Carry on, this is more like the “bamboo stick” we know.

OK, boss is coming, lator!

Lynn said...

Thanks for your confidence in me, Chao. Actually, not so scared any more. Three more days left, and I am getting used to the idea of not working already =)

Chao said...

No kidding. It take lot of guts to do this. I salute you because I'm an Ah Q myself.

Maybe you can open a cooking school. Once you started it plese let me know if you need someone to handle your web/IT related business or any real estate related. ;)

Lynn said...

Not sure if anyone would want to learn cooking from me, but if I have any other business ideas, I will keep your IT expertise in mind!

Anonymous said...

Lynn, bravo on your decision. I know the feeling so well...I do miss the protection of having a job and the security but as you said you have more than your half life in front of you to explore and enjoy it... i just quit my job and moved to Montezuma Costa Rica to open my own organic cafe. Would you like to come and work with me? bakingfairy.blogspot.com